I do a lot of observing, of myself, my life and the outer world. The only thing I do more of than observe is breathe. I pay attention to how I feel, what I think, how I react emotionally and physically to things said and to situations.
About 25 years ago, I attended a workshop at a hospital that was expanding into alternative medicine and holistic practices. To introduce this new mindset to the public, the hospital offered free mini workshops on many subjects such as dreams, tai chi, polarity and more.
In one of them, we did a guided visualization where we were instructed to imagine being small enough to go up the stem of a flower and then go into the vein of a leaf. I remember sitting in my chair thinking “how on earth am I supposed to do this?” I felt very frustrated and decided that I couldn’t do it. This experience was extremely revealing to me, because when I saw it from a different perspective, I realized that it was showing me how incredibly stuck I felt in my life.
I believe we can do very deep inner work on ourselves by paying rapt attention to our inner landscape. This part of us is multifaceted. If we do, it will reveal where to start our work, which beliefs to examine and dismantle, which no longer serve us. It will help us clear the things that block us. I have found that if I pay attention to my inner landscape, it creates a path forward.
I have become aware of more than 10 different layers of my inner self. Some are my soul, my inner fire, my intuition, my Truth, my heart and my wisdom. I capitalize Truth for a number of reasons. It does not refer to truth in general; it refers to my Truth; and it plays a large role in my life. Truth leads me forward.
Right now, I’m in the midst of changing my entire life by moving from a place I’ve lived for 36 years. There is a lot to figure out, recreate and accomplish. I’ve been noticing that I am trusting myself more than I have in the past. I am trusting my brain to come up with new ideas, which it has. I’ve been standing tall in the Truth of my soul, trusting the flow of my creativity, which is quite strong these days. I’m also trusting that the universe will meet me half way, like it has before, as I recreate my life.
When you’ve lived 6½ decades, you know yourself pretty well, especially if you’ve been paying attention. Having clarity is such a good feeling. It gives me strength. I know what I want and what I don’t want. I know what makes me happy and what makes me feel the opposite of that. I know what I’m good at and what I feel passionate about. I have deep clarity on how I want to construct my new life.
It is centered on service, bringing people together to explore their inner selves, to grow and expand, to question anything they feel they need to question and to heal on multiple levels, individually and in community.
There is no limit to what we can accomplish together!